A "State Of The Individual" Post
The blues are back again. I'm struggling to stay afloat. Yesterday was a total washout - napped the day away. By early evening, I'd forced myself out to the "office" (Timothy's @ Church & Alexander). My losing streak continued till I gave up the good fight around midnight. So, rinse & repeat - to coin a metaphor.The new cook is Egyptian. A nice guy who is toiling to jog my Arabic into working again. I've even committed as far as to unearth my notes from immersion to which I had surrendered myself, three hours a day, 5 days a week, for almost all of 1989.. I still read Arabic and can understand spoken Arabic if it's spoken slowly. I've also retrieved some of my French, since everything here's bilingual. Sadly, the longer I live here, the less I feel inclined to a French immersion course. That'd bolster the 4+ years I spent trying to turn it in to my third language. I'm really in the mood to (formally) learn Spanish. I want to visit South America 2010 winter, budget permitting, and my friend Patricio still living in Sao Paolo.
While I'm dreaming of arrows to add to my quiver, I'd like to take an introduction to massage. I had a little training from the early 80s and have since muddled along quite well. However, it appears I have a healing talent to add to everything else. So, anything in the holistic side would be good.
I'm working tomorrow for Elections Canada. A 13 hour shift down The Esplanade way. This will be my third stint. Last year I canvassed Regent's Park for El-Farook Khaki (an immigration lawyer & NDP candidate). Unfortunately, he didn't win, better luck next time
ABRUPT RIGHT TURN into La-La land.....
I'm trying to keep my goals before me. I've put it out there for the Universe to consider, while I make the probability manifest itself. This is finally for me, by me, about me. I recognize and allow myself to feel how proud I am of myself. I've survived and I have the rest of my life before me. I can have ambitions; ambitions beyond just staying alive. I will stress the positive, I have had a second chance at everything. I'm proud of where I finally am, my new career, a relationship in the making, and feeling like everything's as it should be.
Why is it? That, as I'm trying hard to not be negative, I feel like I should be putting in asides, sort of a lame-brained tour-guide preaching to the choir. I can't write something, about not writing something of a thought or an opinion that was less than positive. Round and round...... Do not pass Go, do not collect $200.
Wasn't that a negative thing to say?
When it dawns on you that you can do anything you want with your life, then it can be a little overwhelming...if not downright intimidating. It sounds as if you either need to think about what you'd like to have achieved by year-end and work back from there, but in the meantime just take it one day at a time. ;o)
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